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ok

so some more for ya

at the moment im waiting for it to become 11:10 so i can go off to workies and serve narror minded people some chocolate and icecream

gave my niece (Tia) her birthday gifts which she liked, a sketch model thing and a d.i.y piggie bank. both of which got lots of lookie at with confusion and admiration.

i have started sending kate a few more texts of random film qoutes just to keep her on her toes, just to make sure she is still watching good films and will never forget what 'camel toe' is... hehe

have been getting soem sore headaches and feeling sick in my stomache from playing games recently

not good for me since i love my games, i just bought call of duty 2 big red one and starwars lego. both very good but it does get annoying when u can only play a game for about 20 mins before feeling sick.

steph and i are heading off to her parental units on monday so that will be fun to get away for a bit and be able to actaully spend some decent time together :)

but i found out yesterday that as soon as i get back i have to deal with a work delivery

oh the fun

talk about shoved right in the deep end :(

started my christmas shoping yesterday to get it over with as soon as possible, so i can have some money to myself and not have to spend lots over a short period :P

having to find a good hiding place for them as steph said she'll be looking for them, which to me is mean as i like to see peoples faces as to if they like what ive got them or now.

also planning to have a holiday to las vegas as we found out its really cheap. around £700 for a flight and the hotel for a week for a person

thats all for now

ta ta

alie
xxx

well, its been a long time since ive dont anything like this

mainly as i cant be arse and no0t much really goes on in my life worthy of what is a diary entry

i first off apoligies for my poor gramma and spelling

i dont bother with checking what i type and simply start a new sentence when i move onto a new subject, i find it easier to read :)

well, far too much has gone on since my last post ( w years and a bit :P) to name it all but i'll go over the highlights

steph has since moved in with me and made me very happy :), even if she does bitch a bit too much :P

we're looking for a place of our own to live in so we can live without having anything knicked by my family.

and the best benefit of being abe to walk around naked without having to worry about being seen by anyone :D

i've been to two more reading fesivals (6 in total) and have already bought my ticket for next years

i have broken my ps2 and have since bought my brothers old one, which is a silver one which i think is much better (and old quieter)

i've also bought myself a new p.c which is alot better than my old one as its black (metal!!!!) and just runs my crappie games alot better too

i finally have a job after 3 1/2 years of no luck what so ever :) i did have 2 interviews at mecca bingo and piers which both go rather well but i guess no one wants to hire someone who has a beard :S

so yus, i now work at thorntons and serve meaningless chocolate to people who try to either make semi conversatiosn or simply treat me like a slave, that im here to serve them and nothing more, whioch really gets on my nerves but meh, what am i gonna do. i can hardly shove manners or politeness into them can i....

i started off working in the stockroom for about 6 months but no i have the pleasure of working in the shopfloor and now annoying the customers as well as my work colleges.

most of them are nice but a few (who i wont mention, mainly as a few of my work mates may read this and i dont want to annoy anyone :P) really get on my nerves by doing literally sod asll and complain to me that over people do nothing or do half assed jobs. i know im no saint either and do little as well some of the times but i do at least try :P

change of subject now :)

my sister has since been married, she did in barbados where i attended, the first wedding i've ever been to. felt very guilty going as i turned down an invite of a close friend's wedding where i know she was upset about, even if she doesnt say so. i've since managed to salvage somewhat of the friendship but i know it'll never be the same :(

im stopping here fo4r now as i could waste a day typing and nub out my fingers

so i'll be back :)

alie
xxx

well, ive started to write a book

it is yet untitled

but from what i have planned out im looking forward to how its gonna turn out

apart from that today has been rather dismal

had a nice chat with leanne on the phone

didnt get to go into town as my brother spent 3 hours in the bath with his girl again

its rahter strange to how u can spend that long in a bath and not fuck they are way too much of a pair of clean freaks :S

but yes, ive also watched lots of toy story 1/2 and a my rammstein dvds

so now im just relaxing and watching nip/tuck

ta ta

its been a while since ive undated this

and my what has happened since then

not alot really

start college again on monday

got my sisters wedding and stephs moving in next month and then more college

other than that there isnt much to look forward to

but stuff thats happened

once again not much

been job hunting

lots of sleeping

reading festival

the nice usual chats with steph (even if i have nothing to say :P)

and the occasional meeting of friends :)

thats it really, been very boring as always

ta ta

well im home now and god it feels wierd

im missing steph like crazy, it felt soo natural to be with her and to have her with me... and now im home alone without her i feel sooo empty

i want my hunnie bunnie :'(

but thankfully i had some things to cheer me up

firstly of being stalked by samantha and lucy which i must say was funny as they had to phone me up 3 times to ask to where i was. hehe and to think that they ran away cause they didnt want to get seen.

i also got to meet rachael for the first time with was soo ace :D

had a good time with her getting hyper cause i drank coffee, and im sorry for the slap to the head :( i really didnt mean that.

and i got spotted by so far 2 people.

i also got my reading festival weekend ticket when i got home so thats me also happy, only 2 weeks to go :)

it was good to see family again and to be back in my room :)

but i was a tad of a retard and left my glasses at aberdeen airport

and as for my challange

it had to be called off as steph got ill :(

but the total was around 70

so not that bad :)

well, what an interesting few days it has been

i get my arsed shaved and fuck me that was the dumbest thing i could have done

my arse is not in a rash and itches like a bitch

then yesterday i got the rest of my arse hair waxed and i also got my head shaved :)

and ive just had sex with my girl over the chair im currently sitting on

sore arse or not

it was ace :D

well, what a interesting week its been for me :S

it started on friday and fuck me was i tired :(

i could sleep and i ended up not getting to bed around 3am and as i was off to scotland i was getting up rather early so i looked like death (not that i look any different anyway)

so i get up at 6 and its off to the train station to get a bus (yes, a bus at the train station) to get to heathrow to get on my wonderful plain to aberdeen.

what a fucking boring time that was on the bus. listened to the new slipknot album, which i love soooo much, and when i finally arrive (after which seemed ages) i got off and got checked it.

ok, here is where the panicing began

i get to the airport and go to check in, but im told that firstly i do not look like my photo on my passport (damn fucking woman felt it wasnt me cause my beard), and secondly that i didnt have the right information for me to e able to board the flight.

so when i go off to the help desk where im told that i do have the correct information but the pic in my passport is a bit iffy but as my signitures matched it was ok.

so after that it was all smooth sailing :)

after getting all nice and settled in the waiting lounge i go to get my phone topped up and i just happened to bump into ian watkins of the lost prophets, but i didnt realise it was him.

so after purchasing my top up and sitting back down it finally clicks. but even more bizarrly they are sitting directly to my left. so i go and have a brief chat with them as i wait for my flight. they were cool guys but i could not for the life of me get around their welsh accents.

so after my plane is called for i go to the boarding passage and board the plane.

now, i am a bad flyer at the best of times, and this is when i have people there to talk to to distract me. but this was the first time of me being on my own and fuck me i was truley shitting myself.

if i wasnt constapated i would have felt a good few lumps in my trousers before we had even left the ground. so after listening to 2 whole albums of muse - absolution and origin of symatary. i finally land.

and as i get off and collect my luggage i have the joy of finding out that leanne has forgotten that i was even coming let alone to come and pick me up. so after waiting around for half an hour while i wait for her and caroline to come and get me (thanks :)) i sit silently in the back as i admire the sight of the place which i hope to next year call home.

so yes, when i get to the station i sit and wait for my train, which is due in around 1 1/2 hours. and while i wait i txt around to see if anyone wants to come and keep me company. not expecting anyone to come it is quite a shock to see mo-ha and ashleigh walking in my general direction. it was quite interesting having a rather normal chat with them as most of my chats with them are very umm, limited :P

so when my train finally arrives i get on it and damn that was also boring.

so when i finally get to inverness i go for a mc donalds as i couldnt find the burger king (soo much better). and while there i get propositioned to see this girls 'special place' which i decline as well, kinda nasty to try and pick someone up as they are trying to eat some some of meat.

when its time to get my next train i get on it and that was also very boring as for the first bit of it i had they very drunk guy sitting next to me who would stare at everything i did. including txting which was very annoying (fucker!!!!)

and whem i finally arrived in thurso i was sooo nervous. i could hardly move as i couldnt believe i was gonna see steph again :)

it was like this moment was never going to come. and when i did we hugged for what seemed forever :)

then it was off to get a taxi and off to her parents house. and im sure u can guess what happened next.

over the weekend we went and saw shrek 2 where i laughed loudly (again) and once again i got a few slaps because of this. we also had a half pizza half cardboard meal. we also went for a walk around the town to see some of the sights which i quite liked. its not often i go out at all and not only the very fresh air but the sunlight (even though i was wearing my snazzy sunglasses) was good for me. i got a tan, steph got burnt :P

for the rest of the week i was at the house just relaxing while steph has been at work and when she comes home we are the loving couple that we are and im loving it sooo much :)

when it comes for me to leave im just going to hate it :(
to leave this place where the girl i have come to love lives.... i dont even want to think about it. just the thought has got me to tears.

im also missing home as im missing my dad and my brother. im also missing my room as its such a safe place for me. the place i go to get away from it all. although steph's room is a place where i can go for rest and comfort, it is not really possible for me to feel like it is a place for me to get emotional in the way im used to.

its already been a week and i get the feeling that the next 10 days are going to also go quite quickly. but even if they do i will remember them for of the joy that i get just to be with steph :) also cause im getting to meet racheal for the first time and lindsay again (where i hope to get cake :p)

well, thats enough for me so im off to get some cookies :)

tata

alie
xxx

oh my god

this day has finally arrived

ive been waiting for sooo friggin long for this day

the day i get to see steph and enjoy the love i have for her :)

but damn its been tough to get here

ive had alot of tough times and some very bad moments :(

pissed some people off and got very depressed

but that doesnt matter now

im gonna be the happiest man alive when i have her in my arms :)

let the wet sheet tidalwave begin :D

well what a fuck shit little stint this has been for me

it all started when i was asked about my childhood and how i the crying piece of shit that i am which is a manic depressive

im not going to go into it too much cause ive been crying enough as it is

well, basically it leads down to my 11th birthday party when i was offically screwed over and because of that i got 5 years of abuse...

and well, this set me off into a nice long crying fit which lasted around 6 hours, i didnt sleep at all and i had a dentist appointment at 9:40 which was just great cause i got my face pumped with so much drugs my emotions just went on over drive

i went home and went online and had a quick chat with delly and leanne

didnt really speak as i just didnt give a fuck at the time

i went to bed and well, i hadnt felt so alone in my life

i swear there is nothing worse than to be in bed, when u want to feel loved and you know there are people out there that do but they cant be there for u.

i was crying but no tears came out... (just shows how much i did cry last night)

i pretty much just wanted to climb out onto my window cill and take another flying lesson

but i did promise not to do anything like that, so i just sat back and tried to relax

i phoned a friend to try and take my mind off my lonelyness but it didnt really work

it didnt help much more that when i wanted to take a relaxing bath my brother girl friend had just gone in and spent the next 2 1/2 hours doing whatever the fuck she does. all i know is that she comes out smelling like a dead donkey and her hair looks slightly better. other than that shes no different.

so here i am now

feeling a little better

trying to get the will to move out of my room but i just dont give a fuck

im hoping that i dont feel like this tomorrow

this is the last thing i need right now :(

alie
xxx

what a day

i wake up and phone a good friend and she tells me some bad news

then i go to the dentist and have a nice drilling on a wisdom tooth (got another to go on wednesday)

then i went to get a c.d player as mine is broken but the one i wanted, which was on sale is now out of stock :(

so to cheer myself up so i bought the core cause i loved the film and it was cheap, 7.99 :)

then i get home and habe a quick nap. a nice nap. not for long though :P

i go online and chat for a bit woth some people

and then it happened :(

while chatting to delly i just cracked up...

i just started missing steph soo much. crying like made :(

it sucked so much... i felt i was pissing delly off as she was in such a good mood and i did very little to help it :(

soooo sorry delly :(

feeling a little better now :) thanks for cheering me up a bit *huggies*

but now im chatting to lindsay and have got pingu in huge hug moments :S

it all started with this....

i go online, start chatting to some people and boom.

a webcam request from logan?

surely not...

no. in fact he now has one of his own. and i bet he is regretting it now

during that period i got i would guess at 5 wondering screen pics doing stupid faces for me to use :P

but yes,

other stuff happened to me

well, kinda

got up at around 2pm, went to sleep at 4am.

started sorting out what i am going to take with me to scotland to see friends/girlfriend

and my god its gonna be interesting :)

meeting people again and lots and lots of wondering sex :) (with my girl... not my friends :| )

got an interesting challange of picking out c.d's to take, and after realising that my c.d player is borken my dad (the god himself) is being nice enough to buy me enough :S....

WHAT A GUY !!!!!:D:D:D:D:D

anyways, off to whoop some more ass on mindsweeper challanger :)

ta ta

Current Mood: horny
Current Music: otep - jonestown tea

what can i say

today was interesting

i walk into the living room to find my mum and dad hugging and watching a film

something i really wasnt expecting. so maybe they are getting back together.

but i wont be downhearted if they dont get back together

i've been through enough crap this year to be disappointed by that as well

and later on i was given evil requests by a girl with the name of delly *bad bad girl*

if u ask me again.......

muse

by far one of the best bands ever :D

cant stop listening to them

hehe, cant get enough of them

need to see them again

and pantera, they are even better

just a shame i never got to see them :(

but rammstein, now there is a band

fire, germans and penis's all in one show

what can u do to improve on that !!!!!

to say has been interesting would be a lie

i finally got to sleep around 7am to the sound of ZULU!!!!!!

one of the best war films ever :D

'dont throw, bloody spears, at me' :D

Caine is king :D

anyways, when i woke up at 11-ish

i went and had some coco pops to feed my belly :)

always nice to start ya day (even if it starts in the afternoon) with coco pops :)

after that it was off to watch big brother and to go get some lollies (which i had quite alot of fun practising giving head on, hehe, well, i've got to practise some how :P)

then a rather blissful chat with leanne :), she seems happier than she has been for a long time, with makes me happy. i hate to see a friend down, espically a best friend.

steph didnt go to work today cause she was 'ill' so she stayed in bed for most of the day and did little else (but u know i still love ya xxx)

after a few nice chats with her, and a few exposings :P i went off to watch spartacus but got distracted by my dad to go get some burger king as he couldnt be arsed to cook. and well im hardly one to cook myself.

i had the biggest burger they do, the xl bacon double cheese burger :D

sure enough that filled my belly :)

when i finally got hope i had a bath and cleaned up the beard.... well kinda

and tomorrow im getting my hair cut :D

baldie again.... i cant wait :)

anyways

im off to try and sleep

night

alie
xxx

what can i say

im bored out of my head... again

im eating coco pops at 3am.... again

if only i could do something to get to sleep :(

hell, i've even tried forcable action, yes kiddies, i mean trying to knock myself out

and i'll tell ya now, it doesnt work :(

oh well, i guess i may as well try again to pull an all nighter

only 10 days to go till im with my girl :D

and then the challange can begin

125 fucks in 18 days :S

thats 7-ish fucks a day

i've been if i do it im a master :S

not sure why but hey, im not complaining :)

if i do this i will probably end up with a dick like a sour fish.... but it'll be for the good of my mind :D

anyways, not much else i wanna say right now except that on big brother michelle and stew seem to be trying to fuck under the kitchen table, which to me is kinda nasty.

not something i would do :P

Current Mood: full
Current Music: three dog night - summer in the city

what can i say

i feel lifted :)

im soooooooo sorry to the people that ive annoyed :(

hope u can forgive me *puppy dog eyes*

it always feels good to just spill ya guts to someone you know will listen (thankyou sooo much leanne :) you are an angel without wings)

and steph, if u scream any louder i think i'll need ear muffs during sex :P

i wanna go have a bath but i really cant arsed

talking to too many people who make me smile and be happy hehe

had an interesting chat with a girls whos name im yet to discover

wanted me to show my face on my wonderful webcam

but as im an ugly fuck i obviously declined

and she kept making ms smily by saying my girls name :D

hehe, silly i know but hey, im in love, i dont care...

ive got a dentist appointment in 8 hours :S

lucky me :(

hehe, just been told by someone that they get turned on by death

and to think i thought i was wierd :P

oh well, never mind

i'll just laugh it off and think of butterflys on pins :)

ta ta

i really dont get it

i try and sleep and all i get is a warm pillow and a wet head :(

hold the presses :D

just got a call from my girl and everything in the world is not important anymore

for i am in love and that kicks major ass :D:D:D:D:D

ok, so i wake up

only my dad is home and he is sitting out down by the garage having lunch

after finally getting to sleep after watching starmship troopers and half of saving private ryan. (i think i passed out around 6ish)

so now im um and was about to have a bath but my brother or his wonderful girlfriend, who both have the unique ability to take 2 hours each to get ready. that i cant not understand. how the hell can someone take that long to wash your body and hair.

not unless they have extra bodyparts that i dont know about :S or maybe have a fetish of water.... cause they always seem to be drinking it and spills on my brothers carpet floor.

ah well, no matter. im off to pester and annoy the people of my msn list hehe.